Perhaps I'll try a weekly update on the ins and outs of what's going on with me? That's what this is anyway.
I've been trying super hard to be positive. I was reading Rick Steve's Europe Through The Reach Around book (I think that's what it's called... either way it's good.) And he says something about how to approach travel.
"Be fanatically positive and militantly optimistic. If something's not to your liking, change your liking."
There's something about that I like. It's the determination in it that resonates with me. I'm not normally a overtly possitive person. The designer or product manager in me is always looking for problems. What isn't working. Things that could be better. Things to fix. It's easy for me to apply that to a product or service or thing I'm working on, it's not quite so easy to turn that focus on me. But if that's what I have to do, then that's what I'll do.
This week, I've been hit hard with insomnia. I don't want to take a pill for it, just because I'm trying to reduce pills, but I may have to do something. If someone told me that they were experiencing insomnia, this is what I'd say to them. Go to bed without distractions. Breathe. And when you wake up write in a journal about all the stuff that's swirling in your head. Hand write it. Two or three pages. Just dump that crap out. And keep doing it. But have I done this? No... not yet. Let's see where I am next week. I'll let you know.
On Monday I'm gettting a little surgery. It's outpatient. They are going to put in a thing called a "port". It goes in my chest and connects to a big vein. This will make it easier for them to give me blood tests and infusions. My veins have always been difficult to find, but the chemo and all the poking doesn't help. This thing should. It's a simple surgery, but I'll be under for a little while. In and out.
Then next Friday is my second infusion. That's the half way point.
I should say that besides the lack of sleep, I'm feeling pretty normal, I had minimal queasiness and nothing ever came up. I was expecting the worst, but it was really mild compared to what I was told would happen. The drugs I'm getting are much stronger than last time, but so far so good. I still have my hair as well. No signs yet of it coming loose. A little ringing in the ears, but that's gone now. So this round wasn't too bad. However, if I remember correctly, it gets worse after each infusion. It builds up. I'll just be mindful of how I'm feeling.
I've been coughing a bit more the past two days. Just lots of clear stuff. But that may have nothing to do with this. Just part of my normal seasonal respitory and sinus issues. I'll speak to the doc about it when I see him next.
Speaking of Rick Steves. I am looking at planning a trip to Europe or somewhere with the family for sometime this summer. I'm going to be "militanly optimistic" about that.