I had chemo on Wednesday. My second session out of four. The aftereffects were worse in a different way. I felt more sick than I did last time. Last time was all about bone pain, this time I had better pain drugs, but I couldn't eat much and puked a couple of times. I still had pain, but it wasn't as bad. I also had a sore throat and headache. I called the oncologist on Saturday to see if there was anything I could do, but there wasn't much. If it was bad today, then I would go into the ER. Luckily it started getting better at about noon or one this afternoon.
I'll do some work from home on Monday and will probably go back in Tuesday. The only issue now is fatigue. I hope to feel better as the week goes on as Thursday is my 40th birthday and I'm seeing Fleet Foxes and Blitzen Trapper with the family that night. Yup, it's my birthday. Turning a new decade doesn't help the mindset too much, but I need to stay positive.
When I get sick I get scared. It's scary. It's not easy to think about. All I want to do is survive. I want to be healthy. It also makes the prospect of the next couple of rounds of chemo that much more daunting.
I don't want to be bald. I don't want to be sick. I don't want to die for a long time.
I'm going to the nutritionist tomorrow. That's a necessary step. I plan on getting on the best diet possible to help deal with the immediate concern of the chemo, then get on a lifetime, long term plan. After the chemo treatments, I'll also start an exercise plan. I need to keep it slow, but just not give up. That's the only way it will work.